Dear Diary,
So I started work a couple weeks ago, so I havent really taken the time to write, I know, I am super behind! I have to get up at 5 - 530 in the morning, but the past few days I barely get up before 6am... its tiring having to be there at 7am and working til 4, I mean getting out at 4 is cool because I beat the traffic, but getting up at 6am really is killing me - considering I am NOT a morning person.
Anyways enough bitching. It is great working with people again and socializing - although it made me see I feel like I am the only one in my class of 20 something, everyone is around my age, I am like the only one Not Married, and No kids. Its a real eye opener when I talk about going to go out and they talk about their kids or Husband or their wives. Its a little odd I guess. But I know in time my turn will come I am sure.
So I have been on edge trying to get back in the grove of working and trying to balance that and a home life - I have never been a good one at Balancing anything, so It reminds me I have issues there.
I have to try to focus on things and for me thats difficult. I feel like I am going to drop the ball on one or the other because I am either too quick to say the first thing that comes to my mind (even if it isnt what I really mean) or I neglect to think about others.
I dont know, I feel like my plate is over loaded and I dont know what to do with it - throw it? Scares me that I will fail at one or the other when I know I want both. I guess I have to figure things out... Maybe a bath will help, a good ol thinking bath...
Good Night all
Jess
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Dear sweets,
ReplyDeleteLOL Take it easy! You will be fine just remember that adding a family before you've learned to balance yourself will only cause you to burn out quicker!! I don't focus well either. Hope the job(s) well. Still thinking your gonna make it to GA or not so much?! Talk to me later.